my random thoughts
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Thursday, April 20, 2006 The day has come...well..almost. It's tapeout time, and I'm nervous as hell. Why? Tapepout deadline is basically tomorrow. But we've got till Sunday to see whether we can infact tapeout or not. Right now i'm very pessimestic because this stupid stupid extraction tool decides to quit on me after 3 hours. I spent the whole day trying to figure out the cause of this problem to no avail. Network admin guy has been helpful, but he's scratching his head too. I do appreciate his help tho...cuz he's monitoring the run right now from home. Nice guy. I haven't been eating well or sleeping enough either. Shiit just adds up. Yeah anyway...this brings to my next concern: what happens next? After the contract's done I mean. Grad studies in ECE seems doubtful. I'm essentially waiting for my rejection letter. Already got my rejection letter for OGS already. Ya it's the second time being rejected by a scholarships that's supposedly to be "easy" to get. Whatever! Then there leaves my deferral to MedBio. I'm hopeful but i need to learn about imaging before i go meet with potential supervisors. I'm crossing my fingers. Lastly if none of this goes through I'll need a job. Maybe going back to Cali is an option. Or maybe staying in TO. I don't know. What are my odds of even finding a job? I feel like such a failure right now, not because of stress taping out but from other crap too. It's getting tooooooo much. Everything seems to be up in the air right. I prefer to have an idea of where i'm gonna end up just to give myself a sense of security. Perhaps I have an incredibally HUGE fear of the unknown. I'll see how things go. All i can do is to try my best and prepare for the worst. posted by Ben | | | 10:06 PM |
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