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Thursday, April 20, 2006 The day has come...well..almost. It's tapeout time, and I'm nervous as hell. Why? Tapepout deadline is basically tomorrow. But we've got till Sunday to see whether we can infact tapeout or not. Right now i'm very pessimestic because this stupid stupid extraction tool decides to quit on me after 3 hours. I spent the whole day trying to figure out the cause of this problem to no avail. Network admin guy has been helpful, but he's scratching his head too. I do appreciate his help tho...cuz he's monitoring the run right now from home. Nice guy. I haven't been eating well or sleeping enough either. Shiit just adds up. Yeah anyway...this brings to my next concern: what happens next? After the contract's done I mean. Grad studies in ECE seems doubtful. I'm essentially waiting for my rejection letter. Already got my rejection letter for OGS already. Ya it's the second time being rejected by a scholarships that's supposedly to be "easy" to get. Whatever! Then there leaves my deferral to MedBio. I'm hopeful but i need to learn about imaging before i go meet with potential supervisors. I'm crossing my fingers. Lastly if none of this goes through I'll need a job. Maybe going back to Cali is an option. Or maybe staying in TO. I don't know. What are my odds of even finding a job? I feel like such a failure right now, not because of stress taping out but from other crap too. It's getting tooooooo much. Everything seems to be up in the air right. I prefer to have an idea of where i'm gonna end up just to give myself a sense of security. Perhaps I have an incredibally HUGE fear of the unknown. I'll see how things go. All i can do is to try my best and prepare for the worst. posted by Ben | | | 10:06 PM Tuesday, April 11, 2006 So I got this link from my former roomate today check it out here. It's a neat little Speaking of terrorism...this short (1 hour) documentary is rather http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-8260059923762628848&q=loose+change+2nd+edition&pl=true posted by Ben | | | 10:51 AMMonday, April 03, 2006 I've finally finished Winter Sonata last Friday night. I liked it. I wouldn't want any of that stuff happen to me but it's nice being an observer to all that drama. Though I was a bit surprised that no one died at the end. It got me thinking about the whole dating and relationship thing. What sort of expectations do people have when they enter into one? Is there a difference between 'dating' someone or being in a 'relationship' with someone? It seems all so confusing to me, though the latter sort of carries an idea of time -- as in you're in it because you really like someone and want to be with that individual on a long term basis. Dating on the other hand, seems shorter. Maybe in the order of weeks or even months. You wouldn't want to invest as much emotionally into it knwoing well ahead of time that there is no potential for anything longterm...hence the name *dating* lol. frig..while we're at it why don't we just call it having "friends with benefits"...oh better yet, fuck-buddies. Ya i like the sound of that...it's so trashy but it describes the situation perfectly. You're essentially in it for one thing and one thing: you're sick and tired of being alone on a weeknight/weekend and you need to get ur rocks off. So how many fuck-buddies does one have to go thru before you finally find that ONE. Your Jung Yu-Jin or Kang Joon-Sang? I don't know. I really doubt it. Otherwise we wouldn't need divorce lawyers. posted by Ben | | | 2:02 PM |
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